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+** DONE Microdosing Google Youtube
+CLOSED: [2024-08-26 Mon 19:24]
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+:EXPORT_HUGO_CUSTOM_FRONT_MATTER+: :abstract How do I break free?
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+The one aspect of moden which enrages me above all else is the expecation of always being there.
+
+It was just a few short years ago, before the plague of iPhone plugged us online 24/7, when I could spent a few hours on the web, and it was enough for me to be considered weird.
+Since I was active on a few message boards and I was one the webmasters for an anime-theme site, I had things to do.
+There was constant arguing over which NGE girl was the best, there were reviews to write.
+But it was fully on/of - I was either /online/ or /offline/.
+
+And this is the way I would like to live my cyberlife again.
+It was much healfier.
+Lain was warning us that /no matter where you go, everyone is connected/ and it seemed so cool.
+15 year old me would run to get a cyber-implant without any hesitation.
+
+But now?
+I don't use Instagram, Tik Tok or whatever is popular now.
+My online life consists of:
+- some blogs (which rock)
+- [[https://emacs.ch/@mms][Mastodon]] (which I am growing tired of as it proves itself to be nothing more than a better Twtr)
+- A few, selected news sites (which sadly suck)
+- Google Youtube (which sucks the worst)
+
+Out of those, Youtube has the biggest hold of me.
+I can refresh the homapage a dozen times before finding something mildly interesting (most often not at all), leve it for 10 minutes and then return for another dose of refresh.
+But at the same time, Google Youtube is *the* place where people post interesting things.
+It's just hidden under terabytes of useless crap.
+
+I'd love to be able to simply rely on the few channels I subscribe to (I even have them in my RSS reader).
+But the pull of "hey, maybe I will find something interesting now" is too strong.
+
+If I'd break my Google Youtube addiction, my relation with the internet would be much healther.
+I may even like it again!
+I just don't want to put out my damn phone in front of my kid.
+YT is the easiest thing to fill 5 mintutes of empty time.
+But it sucks your soul in the process.
+
+So, if you broke your addition, please tell my how.
+I tried screen time (too easy to ignore), packages to block all recomendations for browsers (too easy to disable "just for 5 minutes". Also Tim Apple doesn't like my alternative browser enough), [[https://michal.sapka.me/blog/2023/using-rss-to-stop-youtube-homepage-induced-damage/][using RSS only]] (too easy to ctrl+t and open the site), [[https://michal.sapka.me/cool-emacs/watch-youtube/][and even using Emacs for YT]].
+All those were effective for a few days, but none of them stayed with me.
+
+Anyway, here are 7 habbits of very effective people who follow Murakami's schedule for a week and it changed their lives.
+Oh, look! An [[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFHpuc4yqzk][2 hour long Ultima III]] analysis.
+
+** TODO no wait?
+
+I was never much of a gamer.
+I played games, mind you.
+I played a lot of games actually.
+And I still regularly indulge myself in a game on a borrowed PS4.
+But, if anything, I would call myself an extremely casual gamer.
+Sunday gamer, as we call similar type of a driver here in Poland.
+Funny enough, sunday evenings are when I game most often.
+
+But the games changed significantly since my younger days.
+No longer can one play for an hour here and there, no.
+If you have a longer break (and I have longer breaks), you will forget what you've learned and what the game expects of you.
+There so many mechanics,  combinations and so on, that for the dozens of hours of a single playthgough it seem to be expected to treat the game as a job.
+You could easily play Duke 3d or Quake 3 an hour a month, just to have some fun.
+It was simple, focued and transplantable inside a genre.
+
+If you want to be good a game, any particular game, you need to dedicate a lot of time.
+I don't even start multiplayer, because that alone is an infinite timesink, with all that games as a service nonsense
+
+And I am 38.
+I have a job and I have a kid.
+What I don't have is 100 hours in 3 days to play Witcher 3 in a week.
+
+I prefer it that way.
+Instead of being a "gamer", I try get a varried dose of entertainment in this time constrained environment.
+Recently I've been reading a lot of books.
+Something I was unable to do for quite some time, due to varius personal reasons.
+
+I love them becase the are of a singular vission.
+One person wrote them and envisione them.
+There was no meeting of a focus group and multi-level acceptance process.
+Books are not games, and books are not TV shows.
+This is why I value them the highest - they are an expression of the writer, even if editor had a lot to say.
+
+This is also why I love older tv shows.
+They were episodic, so one bad expisode was not a catastrophy.
+You could take risks and not care that much about /lore/.
+It was fun.
+
+One thing I don't get from currently released big production is this exact fun.
+They are well made, they are huge in scope, they know what the public wants after all.
+But there is very little /joy/.
+When I enter particularly large area I don't feel excitement.
+What lies ahead is not full of amusement, but of annoyances.
+And this is my primary reason why I don't see Games as the highest form of entertainment.
+There may be great story, but it's all serving the /gameplay/ which more often than not it a series of annoayanes.
 
 ** DONE Never invest in DRM-ed content
 CLOSED: [2024-07-29 Mon 01:25]
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+title = "Microdosing Google Youtube"
+author = ["Michał Sapka"]
+date = 2024-08-26T19:24:00+02:00
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+abstract = "How do I break free?"
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+
+The one aspect of moden which enrages me above all else is the expecation of always being there.
+
+It was just a few short years ago, before the plague of iPhone plugged us online 24/7, when I could spent a few hours on the web, and it was enough for me to be considered weird.
+Since I was active on a few message boards and I was one the webmasters for an anime-theme site, I had things to do.
+There was constant arguing over which NGE girl was the best, there were reviews to write.
+But it was fully on/of - I was either _online_ or _offline_.
+
+And this is the way I would like to live my cyberlife again.
+It was much healfier.
+Lain was warning us that _no matter where you go, everyone is connected_ and it seemed so cool.
+15 year old me would run to get a cyber-implant without any hesitation.
+
+But now?
+I don't use Instagram, Tik Tok or whatever is popular now.
+My online life consists of:
+
+-   some blogs (which rock)
+-   [Mastodon](https://emacs.ch/@mms) (which I am growing tired of as it proves itself to be nothing more than a better Twtr)
+-   A few, selected news sites (which sadly suck)
+-   Google Youtube (which sucks the worst)
+
+Out of those, Youtube has the biggest hold of me.
+I can refresh the homapage a dozen times before finding something mildly interesting (most often not at all), leve it for 10 minutes and then return for another dose of refresh.
+But at the same time, Google Youtube is **the** place where people post interesting things.
+It's just hidden under terabytes of useless crap.
+
+I'd love to be able to simply rely on the few channels I subscribe to (I even have them in my RSS reader).
+But the pull of "hey, maybe I will find something interesting now" is too strong.
+
+If I'd break my Google Youtube addiction, my relation with the internet would be much healther.
+I may even like it again!
+I just don't want to put out my damn phone in front of my kid.
+YT is the easiest thing to fill 5 mintutes of empty time.
+But it sucks your soul in the process.
+
+So, if you broke your addition, please tell my how.
+I tried screen time (too easy to ignore), packages to block all recomendations for browsers (too easy to disable "just for 5 minutes". Also Tim Apple doesn't like my alternative browser enough), [using RSS only](https://michal.sapka.me/blog/2023/using-rss-to-stop-youtube-homepage-induced-damage/) (too easy to ctrl+t and open the site), [and even using Emacs for YT](https://michal.sapka.me/cool-emacs/watch-youtube/).
+All those were effective for a few days, but none of them stayed with me.
+
+Anyway, here are 7 habbits of very effective people who follow Murakami's schedule for a week and it changed their lives.
+Oh, look! An [2 hour long Ultima III](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFHpuc4yqzk) analysis.